Touching and Loving

When was the last time you touched yourself? And I'm not specifically speaking to pearl diving or rubbing one out, although we will cover that in another post. When was the last time you touched your skin and reveled in its silky goodness or felt soothed in the ruggedness of its dryness...

Self love, yes that thing people typically swear they're all about but don't fully understand. Self love isn't just about liking what you see, although that is a grave part of the process. It's about loving yourself without. Let me explain, cause I know it sounds funny. The way that I've come to understand it, loving yourself without is about loving the IS of you. Not just your melanin (or lack thereof), gender identity, etcetera. It's about loving the very soul of who you are without your body image, without your personality quirks, the core of you *** is seated in the love of your divinity.

I feel like I'm not making sense. Bare with me...

Say you're a foot model... (I said bare with me)... Say you're a foot model and your life is centered around loving and taking care of your feet. Then you lose one in a freak accident and the other is severely scared. When you're loving yourself 'without', the loss of your career as a model and coping with your altered way of living does not shift your confidence in your divinity. Meaning, that there is no pretense or solid reasoning begin why you're loving yourself. You're doing so because that simply IS you. Now will that drastic change to your life alter the way you express that identity, sure. Will it take some deep refocusing and adjusting, absolutely. However, it does not change that fact that you are divine, and have a deep abiding love OF that divinity.

Take a moment now to caress your shoulder or leg.
 
*No seriously, do it! I'll wait*
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You see how that feels, that warm touch that's you! Your limitless potential rests within every cell of flesh you just touched. In that small area there's limitless potential, infinite love, and light. 

Now when you introduce sexual or creative energy (because they are one and the same) into the mix, it intensifies an already magical state of awareness. And the topic of divine sexual/creative energy warrants its own post, trust me! But for the moment just imagine how dope a life you'd create once you tap into the whole of who you are, and love that without pretense. i plan to fully explore more ways in which I come to a deeper understanding and know of myself through my flesh, my spirit, my very essence... I'll be sure to check in later and let you know how it's going. I do encourage anyone needing some self-love to go forth and touch yourself, explore yourself, know thyself, and be thyself. 

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Breath

*Inhale*

I was awaken by the rain today and after the quick morning meanderings, I opened my window sat on the edge of my bed in silence feet on the window sill. I sat in silence as I listened to the breath of God. I couldn't see god's breath only the expression of it. The flags on my neighbors porch blowing in the wind, wind chimes singing their songs, the rustling of leaves. It was in that present moment I felt more alive than I had in the past few weeks. 

Here I was "super spiritual" me, forgetting to take the time to just be in the presence of God. 'God'. Saying that used to scare me because I didn't want people to think I was talking about the Christian version of God. For me, what most people think of when the word God is uttered, was never really what I was talking about. Then again the older I got I realized that my concept of God wasn't even what I thought it was about. I've started reading this book that is helping to break all those previous conceptions, breaking them down and expanding my consciousness in a palpable, meaningful way. I can willingly admit that for a time I have fallen prey to the 'spiritual arrogance'. I'm sure you've seen it before from your spiritual or religious friends. That feeling of "I'm so much more enlightened/holy then you are so I'm going to try and, either flagrantly or subtly, dismiss your expression of God completely." Many a people have reached this point. It's probably a necessary stop in spiritual evolution, one of those things that is hard to avoid. I think more and more I'm at a point where I really don't care if people understand my concept of God. Why? Because it is Mine. 

Me connecting with God was never about titles or ideas or practices. It was about me. Connecting with me. I know that there is only one me; therefore, there is only my unique expression of the God in me, through me. It's very freeing, honestly. I've been trying to figure out why I've been feeling so disconnected from God and it's because I haven't been connecting to myself the way that I should. The two are definitely intertwined, there can be no God without me, and no me without God. Working on becoming confident in I Am, is my goal now. And as I continue to listen to the expressions of Gods breath, I feel better about the decision to stop caring about how my godhood is perceived and to just be. 

*Exhale*